Thursday, 30 May 2013

Strange times.

   Well only for me. I'm back in the family home. Only temporarily though. Our daughters have finished  College and Uni. The housing market is in better shape than it was three years ago when we split. So the time is right and I'm looking forward to moving on and finding somewhere of my own to live.
   Before that happens and the reason I'm here is, there are several jobs around the old house that need to be addressed before the hoped for hordes of buyers beat a path to our door.
   My ex and I get on ok but it still feels odd being back. Although seeing my daughters every day is a bonus and our two cats don't seem to have forgotten me but things have changed. There's a new dynamic here and I'm keeping out of any discussions or decisions. I'm just a guest with tools and paint brushes.
   As this all draws to a close. The opportunities ahead for me are pretty good. I've found an area where I'd like to move to and have roughed out ideas for work. I have a couple of garages full of furniture and stuff I've brought over the years from auctions etc and am looking forward to the idea of being surrounded by these. So why can't I get motivated ???
   I'm going to take my own advice here. Not think about "why" too much. I shall egg myself on instead of bemoaning my lack of industry.
   Actually, I should say at this point I'm not an outwardly miserable person. I laugh and joke with the best of them and am positive about well everything really. It's time on my own however. When I'm hit by the feelings of failure and the enormity of what lies ahead. That's what floors me but it's just a thought isn't it. Like "it's warm/chilly today" or "my coffees too hot/cold". I just need to re-think my answers to my negative thoughts.
   We are the most important person in our lives. That's not a selfish thought. Without us, you and me. Then  there's nothing. Is there ?
   I've been thinking and changing things these last three years but the changes have been small. I accept they don't always work. Nothing works 100% of the time and when you're not as bright as you could be then that percentage is going to drop even lower. So now for bigger changes. If I've accepted the fact that it doesn't always work on the small stuff then I think I'm ready to accept it isn't always going to work on the big stuff. I know more now though,

There's more than one way of viewing something........
Don't fold and give up too early .......
Accept "good", the short distance to "better" can quite often be littered with traps ........
Have a plan B .......

I feel better already lol.

Onwards and upwards in pursuit of fulfilment and happiness :-)))

Monday, 20 May 2013


   My last three jobs have all been for previous customers. Two of them I haven't heard from in some time. It's always a good feeling when a previous customer gets in touch.
   The jars marked "self belief" and "self worth" are rarely full when you have a dark cloud always in close proximity. So to hear from an old customer always gives me a lift.
   I also found out that another of my customers is having a tough time of it lately. He's suffering from alzheimer's. His son tells me he's giving up. Which is a real shame. I found him an extremely kind and interesting man. He would always call me around September to service his aging boiler and make sure all was well with the heating. His call would always come when I needed a lift both finacially and spiritually. My repeat customers are like stars in a very black sky. I hope his shines a bit longer. He's an exceptional nice man.