It's a wonderful life.

   Is on over the holidays and along with the Queens speech, turkey and mince pies, leaves you in no doubt that Christmas has finally arrived.
   The year is ending really well and it's the oddest thing that has made the difference. I've finally finished reading my unenjoyable but thought provoking book. Towards the end came the following lines "The Oceans ebb and flow for You. The birds sing for You. The Sun rises and sets for you. The stars come out for You." It's very close to a bad chat up line, isn't it? but the next day when I woke, I continued the sentiment. The birds were indeed singing (for me) the coffee jar was there in the cupboard and the kettle was boiling for me. There was a seat on the train, next to a very nice smelling lady and a rather annoying child. All for me!
   It really changed my day and has continued. Even when things don't go to plan or would be thought negative, the mere fact that it's happened for me and only me. Seems to change it into something easily accepted and promptly dismissable if needed to be.
   My last bit of work before Christmas was Sunday morning. A kitchen tap change, for a customer I haven't seen for just over a year. Since then he and his wife have separated and divorced. The company he works for is having financial difficulties and to topall this, he was burgled on Friday. He described his year as "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times." You see what a good education can give you. The chance to quote Dickens when life's crap. How I felt for him and applauded his positive stance. I feel my year is ending the same as his :-)

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of fulfillment and happyness.  Merry Christmas xxx          

Around this time of year ...............

   Things come into sharp focus. It's almost the end of another year and Christmas is upon us. Everyone seems to have or be catching a cold too. It's that time of year when, if you haven't taken proper precautions you could get a bad dose of the blues too.
   It's been over two and a half years since I started my blog and I'm not sure anything has changed. I know far more now than I did but am I anywhere nearer a better life?
   Tonight's not the night to answer that question. One thing I have picked up along the way (thank you Mystic Customer)  is, if you want meaningful answers and solutions only deal with difficult questions when you're in the right place, mentally and physically.
   So maybe I'm closer than I thought !

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of fulfillment and happyness :-)  

More on "updates" ......

   I kind of touched on how things were going generally in the last couple of posts but as this is more a diary for me than a read for you, I need to list a few things for future reference.
   MissG and I split about ten weeks ago. I've been coming to the conclusion that I'm just her weekend boyfriend. For me she's more than that but it's getting on for a couple of years now and to be honest I couldn't see much changing in the future. I bumped into her the other day, (she also sends me the odd text too) and she said she missed me (I miss her too) but she doesn't know what she wants. I can understand that but I'm not willing to hang around. I hope that doesn't sound harsh but I'm kind of getting to like who I am and I want the best for him :-). I told a close friend I missed her and he said well you made more of an effort than she did and you deserved more. Just the kind of thing you need to hear from a friend when you're a bit down. I have to say for 99% of the time it was blinding (really good) and I doubt I'll meet someone like her again. I'm a better person now, in part for being with her, than I was. So it's been good. It's just a shame that relationships don't end like a bowl of ice cream does, all happy and content.
   I'm spending more time with my daughters lately and am enjoying their development as adults. Albeit sometimes from afar.
   Work, or more precisely getting through it quickly and efficiently still remains my big failing and because it pays for everything, causes all else to unravel. So more effort required there. I have to say it's the simple stuff I fail on. Go to bed too late. Don't plan and drift off the point. What a plank !!!!!!
   Overall though I have a lot to be thankful for and positive about. I've been reading a book call "The Secret", I guess most of you have heard about it. On a very simplistic level, it's about wishing for things and if you do it right those things come to you. I have a bit of a problem with that per-se but the book has made me think a lot. It's the first time in memory that I've found a book really helpful whilst not enjoying it or fully embracing it's message. Has that ever happened to you?
   Well that's enough from me, I'm off to bed before today becomes tomorrow. Again for the first time in living memory I have to say that I feel confident and capable. Look after yourselves and those you love.

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of fulfillment and happyness :-)