Day 333. Not my most productive day!

Well I've wasted most of Monday. So that puts the pressure on for the rest of the week. On the plus side I'll spend the evening planing the week ahead and get to bed early. I'm on call but if I'm lucky it may stay quite.
I'll make sure the flat's tidy before I turn in so they'll be no excuses for a slow getaway in the morning.

Monday is "Star of the Day" day. Over the weekend I was planning my summer holiday. Yes I know I'm broke but you've got to have a goal. Anyway MissG has never been to Giverny. The home of the French artist Monet. I've been before, that's where I took yesterdays picture. So I looked him up and found this

" At the beginning of May 1883, Monet and his large family rented a house and 2 acres (8,100 m²) from a local landowner. The house was situated near the main road between the towns of Vernon and Gasny at Giverny. -The family worked and built up the gardens and Monet's fortunes began to change for the better as his dealer Paul Durand-Ruel had increasing success in selling his paintings. By November 1890, Monet was prosperous enough to buy the house, the surrounding buildings and the land for his gardens."

So he rented the house for seven years before things got better. He was fifty by then. He spent a further thirty six years living and painting there before he died. I have to say it's lifted my spirits, knowing he kept at it for all those years in his forties until things improved.

The Wiki entry is pretty good and worth a visit.

 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Claude_Monet#Giverny

Onwards and upwards :~)

Days 331 and 332. The weekend review.

It's been another positive week. I've learned a few more things about myself and I really feel I'm taking charge of my life at last.

It's becoming harder to keep up with the blog as running out of time. Which I suppose isn't a bad thing. On the other hand committing things to paper or screen keeps me fairly honest.

Another short entry I'm afraid. Will try better :~)

Onwards and upwards :~)

Day 330. A day late I'm sorry.

Apologises for missing Fridays blog. I had a good full day at work. Then needed to rush home do some shopping on the way, have a tidy up and put some food on. Then await the arrival of MissG. We had a good evening together and had a really lazy day on Saturday until she left around 5 to meet up with her sisters.

Being busy  keeps my mind off worrying about things but I'd be lying if I said it stays away completely. Then again I feel more positive. I'm starting to get my priorities in the right order and taking setbacks more in my stride.

OK enough. Time to take a look at things in a very lighthearted way. Friday nights are now designated as "The Joys of Depression"

You're at a party and even in your low state you're having an ok time. So imagine what an absolutely brilliant time all your mates are having around you. You may well be off the drink as well. Seeing as to how it makes you all maudlin and miserable. So you're probably the designated driver to boot. Your mates will have had a blinding time at the party get driven home and helped up the steps to their front door! Now who wouldn't want a depressive as a friend :~)

Onwards and upwards :~)

Day 329. Too type to tired :-)

It's been a busy day and I've got through a lot and tied up a few loose ends. I'm trying to be realistic with time scales and not making promises I can't keep. It's going to take a while to get that bit right. I can't think of a time when I wasn't being unrealistic with timings or making promises that were doomed.

I guess these two combined have had a big part to play in where I am currently. In an effort to please and impress. I did neither. So another thing to add to the "must change list".

That's it for today ( well yesterday now) On balance there has been far more positives than negatives and the week is coming to a good end.

Onwards and upwards :~)

Day 328. Getting bogged down.

Today started well. listened to my French tape while I sipped the hot water and lemon. Left the flat clean and tidy and had a pretty solid day at work.

I'm overdrawn at the Bank and have £1:19 in my pocket. So tea will be a hotchpotch of whatever I can find in the fridge. Hopefully a cheque I paid in late last week will clear by tomorrow as pretty low on petrol as well. I could do with loosing a pound or two but would prefer not to breakdown!
It's still pretty early, 7pm. I don't usually get to do the blog till much later. So tonight's an opportunity to get something done. Not sure what it will be but it will including reading abit of Kipling (days 303 and 304) and in bed by midnight hopefully.

I forgot to mention MissG came over on Sunday and brought me chocolates and flowers. The first flowers any one's ever brought me. Flowers, whether for a man or a woman are a wonderful little gift. They brighten up any space and if your lucky smell pretty nice as well.

I thought I'd finish each day with something different. So "Star of the Day" on Mondays. "Weird things on EBay" on Tuesdays. "Stuff on the Web" on Wednesdays. Not sure about Thursdays yet and Fridays will be "The Joys of Depression" a light hearted way to start the weekend.

So to kick things off,

http://www.urban75.org/useless/bored.html

Goodnight and as always Onwards and upwards :~)

Day 327. The mountains aren't as high and the valleys not so deep.

Finished my weekend on call this morning. It's been a busy and tiring weekend but two thoughts occurred to me this morning.

Firstly. I need to put myself at the front of the queue, put my interests first. If I'm going to get myself to a better happier place then I have to. I spend plenty of my thinking time dithering. If this happens, if I can do this, if only that happens. Which benefits no one, least of all me. Accepting that my current situation won't change for the foreseeable future is a good solid start and  was probably the first grown up thing I've done in a while. It will help iron out the ups and downs along the way in the near future.

Secondly. Today the valleys, home of despair. Don't look so deep and the mountains full of successes and hopes don't appear so high. Or to be honest, worth dwelling in for the moment. Best I move along the road as quickly as possible and find more things to write about.

Onwards and upwards :~)

Day 326. Ups and downs.

Today has been a bit up and down. I did something really stupid last week. I thought I'd sent an invoice to a customer for a large amount which would of covered the rent. Spoke to the customer today and found out they had not received anything. So panic and instant gloom. I've corrected it now but the next couple of days will be really difficult financially. I'm either managing things well or poorly at the moment. A success is cancelled out by a failure. Or is it a failure is cancelled out by a success?

Onwards and upwards :~)