A lazy Bank Holiday Monday.

Well I did have plans but it's the last Bank holiday of the year. So have decided to have a lazy day instead. That said MissG came over Saturday evening and left this morning and in an effort to impress I cooked an evening meal for Saturday plus a couple of breakfasts. Being a typical man I was honour bound to use every plate, bowl, sauce pan and all cutlery available to me in this endeavour. So there's lots of washing up still to do.

We had a great time together and were able to reflect on the past and a little into the future. So back together and stronger than before. The break definitely helped. Made me realise what I had lost and a little about what I needed to do to get her back. The rest you know if you've followed the blog.

As per Fridays entry I'm very aware this is only the end of the beginning and there's lots of work and effort to go.

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)  

Highs and lows.

Yesterday I spoke to my clients neighbour and they've asked me to give them a quote for their bathroom. Which was the high. Later in the day my van was broken into and some power tools stolen, that was the low. None the less I've managed to stay in the high spirits I've been in for the last week or so. This is the first time in a very long while that I've taken bad news on the chin. I'm starting to take bad news in my stride just like Chris Gardner, which is pleasing and long may it stay that way. It's not over yet, there's a long way to go.

But as Winston Churchill said, "  This isn't the end. This isn't even the beginning of the end. However, this is the end of the beginning."

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

Change from within (part 2).

So I've been pondering over inner change for the last twenty four hours and come to the conclusion that I need to let certain feelings and thoughts go to leave space for the better things inside me to gain abit of weight and confidence. So they can be allowed to reflect the real me.

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

Change from within!

I had a bit of a surf on the web yesterday and came across an article about change. It basically said  change had to start on the inside first as what happened on the outside was merely a reflection of the inside. I've been thinking about this and will spend today thinking about it too.

Short and sweet today but will have more time this evening to reflect on this.

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

Back to the job at hand.

So in the last month. I've eaten better, had more sleep and got into a regular exercise routine. I read up about fixing broken relationships and put together a plan. Whether the plan worked or MissG changed her mind I'll never know. It was probably abit of both. I've changed for the better and now have a bit of focus.

It's this focus that worries me slightly. To be honest all the above were fairly enjoyable things to do. It's work that's the problem area. I really need to get to grips with it. Because "it" is what's needed to drive the above. "It" provides security, the wherefore all to pay for the rent,  the food, the petrol and going out. So my new found focus better be resilient and have some oomph to carry me along. Time will tell!

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

A day by the sea.

Well Sunday was our friends 50th. So I drove down and picked up MissG. We went to church first. She's a Devote Christian and she feels shes lost her way lately. so I offered to accompany her, I was interested to see as this wasn't your usual church service.

After church I drove us both down to the coast. We stopped for some lunch then wandered off to the party. Some of our friends where there. So it was a good afternoon full of chat and laughter. Around 7 I said we better get home as both of us had work. Once we left I told her we were off to a Ceroc dance class (jiving) just down the road (I found it on the Internet and thought it would be a great way to end the day) Well it was a blast. You change partners alot in a beginners class and it was fun to catch her eye or hear her laughing as she went round.

We both had a brilliant day and also took some time out to talk about how we can avoid the little things that got in th way before. We are getting together next weekend and I'll try and come up with little mini dates to do during the day.

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

Summng up!

I've been taking the Citalopram for over a month now and things have improved alot. Part of me hates to admit it. I wanted to beat the misery myself. Which is pretty stupid really. If I had a headache or heartburn I'd happily take something. So I need to get over myself and see that help in all it's forms should be embraced.

Works going well. It's not perfect by any means but it's moving in the right direction.

There has been a flurry of texts between MissG and myself. I felt she was sending mixed messages. Anyway I asked if I could call her, as there is only so much you can get across via a text. So we spoke at length. Nothing too complicated and at last started to talk about what wasn't right. It was all pretty simple stuff that could of been avoid if we had mentioned it at the time and didn't let it fester. So I'm happy to report we are going to start again. It's not a continuation of before but a fresh start. There was/is far too many good things that are worth keeping and relatively few bad things. Which, if we can find a comfortable way to discuss thoughts and feelings shouldn't be too hard to remove. As you'd expect I'm really really happy about the change in situation and looking forward to being back in a relationship. I'll need to temper my thoughts and feelings and take things slowly, carefully and enjoyably.

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)