Sunday, 1 January 2012

Positive ends!

  So January 1st is almost over and Adele is on the BBC singing "make you feel my love," while I type. I didn't realise it was a  Bob Dylan song and it sets the tone for today's post.
  MissG's been texting me, over Christmas. Simple stuff, wishing me a Happy Christmas, what am I up to etc etc. It's left me confused though. she ended the relationship and I'm still getting over it, so each time the phone bleeps I'm checking who it is and either feeling some joy or some disappointment. I thought about what to do, ask her why see feels the need to keep sending texts or to bluntly say stop. I decided to let the holidays pass before doing anything.
   So another text arrived this afternoon and this time I asked her why she continued to send them. It's obvious she still feels something but it's not the same depth as my feelings for her. After several messages backwards and forwards (is that anyway to conduct a relationship anyway)  where she says she misses my company and is confused she's agreed to stop. I need the silence and I think it will be good for her too. I've moved on enough to know it was a really wonderful time. falling in love with someone and being really close was a fantastic experience and with a bit of time will only be remembered for that and not the angst that has followed. That, with time, will fade away to dust.  So a positive end of sorts.
  Today also saw me cooking, chicken breast with chorizo sausage and bubble and squeak cakes (potato and any vegetable leftovers, in this case parsnip, carrot, brussel sprouts and some onion). I've done this before but this was the best so far.
  Finally I did "man tidying" it's like normal tidying but the place still looks a mess afterwards. I've moved things around in my little space. So now the laptops easier to get to, I've found a new book to read "Starting over" by Tony Parsons and red left sock has been reunited with red right sock. So a happy ending to my day

  Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

Antny26's version of "make you feel my love" is the best I've found. Adele has a wonderful voice but you can feel this guys pain.

1 comment:

  1. Dear Spanner,

    I am delighted to hear about your socks. If you find my other purple sock, would you let me know? I've been looking for the bugger for ages. It's gone to the place where all the socks go and they pair up, and split up, and pair up with a different sock. Loose socks. Anyway, it seems to be having the time of its life out there, as it has not found its way back to me yet. So, keep your eyes peeled.

    (Dirty little sock).

    No "highway of regret" when it comes to you, Spanner, so it seems. Keep up that wonderful spirit, and the bubble and squeak.

    :-) P x