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Wednesday 4 January 2012

Things you have no control over, part 2.

Well the texts stopped but were replaced with emails and the one thing I've wanted for a long time, to have a shared and equal conversation happened. It became apparent as we chatted that although we both want the same thing (a loving supportive relationship) neither of us can for a variety of reasons give that to each other at the moment or for the foreseeable future. In the past my relationships have ended because one or other party  has had enough of the other and not because you can't love or be loved enough! Still as painful mind.

So I didn't get my way about no texts. I did get my way about sharing deep thoughts. I didn't get what I thought I wanted. I did get closure. I learned loads today. It was like being in an episode of the Waltons. I just didn't get the group hug towards the end and the chance to say goodnight to Gran-ma

Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)

2 comments:

  1. “The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.” ― Bob Marley

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  2. Cor poor old Bob! One thing I did get from this Med was a bit of a boost to my "self worth" reserves. I made every effort to leave no stone unturned. So walk away knowing I have plenty to offer. hope that doesn't come across as selfish !

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