It took me a while to get out of my blue funk yesterday. I started by making some food for the next few days broccoli & stilton soup. Some potato salad and a small fish pie. Straightened the flat. Went out to do some work at around 4 and got home at 9 then wandered off to the gym. I'm down another half pound. That doesn't sound much but actually I've lost two pounds of fat and gained one and a half in muscle lol
Contact with MissG is very patchy. I have to say, that hand on heart I think I been very gentle in trying to persuade her to open up a bit but it hasn't worked yet. So for the moment I need to move on. The horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach will still be there though. I'll let time resolve that and what's left of the relationship if any. It's sad but it feels the right thing to do..
Two things I've realised over the last forty eight hours. Firstly whatever I'm doing my mind is on the next task. I'm not living in the moment, now that may be due in part, to what's happening to me at the moment. Although I have to say looking back it's something I've been guilty of in the past.
The second and by far the more important of the two is the support I've received from two people I've never met. One of them is Med. He has a family and his own demons to fight but he always finds the time to send me useful words of support. Good support can make a huge impact and I thank both these people for their care and input.
So hopefully I'm back into positive mode. Forget hopefully, I am back in positive mode.
Onwards and upwards in pursuit of happyness :-)