As the title says did all the things on my STG today. I'm not turning cartwheels but then I'm not in the mood to at the moment. I do recognize however as being important. Each day I can achieve my STG's is another step towards better "self worth" and "self love".
As I said before (+15-1) I am at my best when putting up a fight, when I want something. That feeling has been missing for several years, in fact I'd almost forgotten I could feel that way. Well that fighting feeling is returning. It used to be for materials things, car, house etc etc. Now I'm going to put this to a totally different use. I want to bring out all those separate elements inside me pull them together and be the success I know can be. At last, things seem to be forming into something solid, something very useful.
“I CAN is 100 times more important than IQ.” — unknown
In answer to yesterdays comment from Med. The gym stays open 24hours, so a late visit means it's emptier and after a shower and a short walk home I'm ready to sleep. Soups and fish pie are almost my entire culinary repertoire plus porridge lol.
Onwards and upwards in the pursuit of happyness :-)
PS. I was going to leave this for a later blog but I spoke on the phone to MissG last night. It wasn't a call out of the blue. She had texted to say she would phone. We're meeting on Saturday. Things are over but tellingly not finished. So more in a later blog when my thinking is a little more settled. To do that I need to replace thinking about what "could of been with MissG" to "what's best for me now". Simple really but then aren't all the good ideas simple and vice versa.
If you hadn't done such a good job of writing this post, I might have had some advice for you. As it is, you've said it all. Nice one Spanner. ; )
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